I've been reading.
And in my reading, I've come across the idea that God is with us through all our trials. I believe this. I want to know it!
But the counter-thought comes... If God is always with me, why don't I always feel His presence when I'm in the midst of a trial, hardship, struggle or in despair. Why must some people endure such pains, suffering, violations and trauma? Why, if God is there, doesn't He intervene?
I know the answer to the last question. God has give mankind agency, and He won't deny them that gift, even if they choose to use it to abuse themselves or others. He has also give His Son, so that all who believe that Christ did what He said He would do, and all those who repent and strive to follow His teachings, will be healed from all wounds, all abuses, all pains, all sufferings.
But I still want to know, why is it that I can't feel His presence and support when I'm struggling?
Then I had this thought today: Perhaps God's presence is like the air we breathe.
How often do I notice the air that I'm breathing? I notice when I'm too hot or too cold. I notice when it's windy outside, just like I notice when life is making me feel uncomfortable, unhappy or frustrated. But how often do I notice the life sustaining air that I'm breathing? Not often. And yet, it's there every single day. It doesn't leave if I'm struggling or in doubt. It doesn't disappear if I mess up, again. It doesn't vanish if I have a difficult choice to make, or if I can't see the path I'm supposed to take. Just like God doesn't ever leave. At least not If I'm seeking Him. He's always there if I'm inviting Him in. And perhaps like the air I breathe, I can't see, or taste, or smell Him. Rarely do I really hear him. But all the same, He's there, giving me life sustain support. I just have to trust the principle and the process.
Just because life isn't going smoothly, don't mean that God has left me alone. Just because I"m struggling, doesn't mean He's abandoned me.
He's as constant as the air I breathe.
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